I’m feeling rather low today.

I think it’s partially because I’ve been trying to help other people figure out their lives. While I’m not sure I’ve been actually helping anyone, I’ve certainly been forced to take a closer look at my own.

I’m not entirely sure why. I’ve finally got most of the basics pinned down. I have my Josh, my house, my car that makes me smile every single day, and my job that’s fun yet challenging enough to be interesting. I’m paying down my debt, and learning to save for retirement and for the other things I want.

Lots of my long-term life goals are tied to finances, and I seem to be on track in that regard. I’m not where I wish I was, sure, but I’ve got a plan in motion and for once I’ve been able to stick with it.

With some life goals achieved, and other so far in the future, sometimes it feel like my day-to-day living is going nowhere. Spinning my wheels while I wait for something.

I do know some of the feeling can be contributed to hormones. I ran out of BC last week, but my Dr. was away so I couldn’t get an appointment for a renewal until today, and my body is letting me know, in no uncertain terms, that it doesn’t like my “natural” cycles and wants back on the drugs ASAP.

I’m also worried about my cat. Last week we had a urine sample tested at the vet, to see if she had crystals or a UTI or something, but instead the tests indicated early chronic renal failure. o_0 She’s having some blood taken later this week to do more tests specifically for that, but if she does, since she’s only now starting to show (potential) symptoms, it means she’s already lost 70% of kidney function. I has a sad.